So, its been a LOOOOONG couple of weeks. I feel terrible for Javan because I am been so distracted and stressed. Any free minutes that I aren't spent working are spent either sleeping or googling. But, I think the mysteries are getting solved now so things are looking up!
Well, first of all. Last week was a great week. Javan had his preschool graduation... which I totally forgot my camera. I tried to take pics with my phone but they were aweful. That says where my brain has been lately!! haha. Saturday was Javan's first T-ball game. He had a great time and I DID remember the camera for THAT. Shew. I will load up pics soon.
The diabetes. Welp... I bought a glucose meter and ...well... my blood sugars were absolutely wild. I would eat 8 wheat thins and they would go up to like 260 or something crazy like that. It was a difficult week, trying to figure out what I was able to eat and what not. I tried just cutting down on the carbs but it didn't help.
It was frustrating and scary and exhausting. On Thursday, I ended up on the floor in tears, begging God to take it all away from me and take care of it. I couldn't handle all of this stress any longer. That night I had a dream that they did an ultrasound and there was a little baby girl in there with dark curly hair and she looked like a toddler and she was DANCING and PLAYING and DOING FLIPTY LOOPS in my tummy and the doctor goes "doesn't she know she's not supposed to be dancing in there. haha.
Lance said that it was God's way of telling me everything is going to be JUST FINE.
Anyway, the next day I noticed that when I ate pickles my blood sugar dropped tremendously. Lance and I were talking about it and realized that we thought maybe it was the vinegar. So, I pretended I was at a bar and took a shot of good ol Apple Cider Vinegar. Boom. my blood sugars dropped about 50 points!! Unbelievable! So... I cut out all carbs and fruit and drank 1T of apple cider vinegar after each meal and exercised 30 min a day and got them down to normal ranges 90-140 but still that waking number I couldn't get down below 140. That number should not be over 100 when pregnant.
I am seeing a doctor tomorrow morning but my midwife believes that I must have had diabetes before this pregnancy and didn't know it. That does explain the 10lb weight loss over the past year. I didn't know that was a symptom. Which, the scary news is that high blood sugars during the first trimester can be very dangerous for the baby... but I didn't know and I can't change time. I just have to trust that God's got it under control. He's hasn't let me down yet!
And speaking of the baby....I went in to see the midwife about the diabetes and while I was there I had an ultrasound. I know, mom... ultrasounds are dangerous for the baby ... BUT IT WAS DRIVING ME CRAZY... and I think the relief of stress was worth it to see a HEALTHY BABY KICKING AND JUMPING AND SUCKING HIS/HER THUMB. Oh how I cried! It was so beautiful!! I have a picture, I will post next.
I think life is on its way to being back to "normal" with a slight variation with this whole diabetes thing. I can handle that...... :-)
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